我心目中的父亲(My father in my heart)

我心目中的父亲(myfatherinmyheart)

howtodiscribemyfatherscharacatorseemedveryeasyinthepast.but,maybeivegotwrongandbeenwrongallthetime.

inthepast,whenmynaturemotherwasstilllivingwithus,hehadasavagemoodwhichoftenfrightenedbothmymotherandme.aftertheygotquarrelled,afightwasunavoidable.maybeafightcontainsmisunderstandingsofboth,butinthoseday,ithoughtthatitwasallmyfathersfault.ihatedhim!hewastheghostinmylife!www•

wheniwassixteen,mylifechangedbecauseofthedeathofmymama.shewasbadlyhurtinahomeaccident,andthoughthegodshebelievedhadnopowertorescueher.fromthenon,myfigurechangealot,fromanaughty,passionateboytoaquietanddiffidentboy.ididntwanttotalkwithanyone.myfather,howeverwasseriouslyflustrated,healsohadtotakethereponsibilityofbringingmeup.duringthatveryhardmoment,ononehand,hehadtostandupforthetragedy,ontheotherhand,hehadtoworkhardtosupportmyeducation.asinthattime,allmegotinhandwasonly3000yuan,ifisucceededinenteringahigherschool,atleast,wouldcost7000yuanayear,thatsnotamoneyofbit.

ivealwaysthoughtthatimustbethemostunfornateoneintheworld.whenigotfrustratedinlife,idnowheretoexplainasidbeenusedtoexpressmyheartachetomydearmotherandnowshewasntthere.everytimeisawthemothersandsonspassasideme,ifeltsosorrow,andiknewhowlonglyiwas!iwassureindeediwasthemostsorrowone!

buttomyfather,howdidhefeelwhenhelosthisbeloved?maybetheniwasreallytoyounytoobserve.ionlyknewhewasveryverysad.iheardthatwhenmymotherwasinhospital,helaiddownonhiskneestoaskhelpfromthedoctors,andwhenthedoctorshakedhishead,henearlywantedtodiewithher!someonesaidthat"thoughtheyquarrelledalot,buttheyreallyloveseachother".beforethosedays,ionlygetclosedtomymother,andoncetheyquarrelledorfighted,shewouldhatedhim,however,tostandwithhere,ihatedhimdaybyday,sometimesievenfelthimjustlikethedevilinmylife.iveneverthoughthewouldbeinsuchasorrowness. 

myauntswouldcomeandseemeeverymonth.theytaughtmethatishoulddowhatevermyfatherwantmeto,tillivebeenaman,couldgetawayfromhim.iknewwhattheymeant.ioftengotonuneasywiththem,andihatedthemtokeepanshouldeyeonmyfather.tometheyreallyhadapityonorfeltsomeresponsibilities.butihatedpitymost!

nothingcanbebelievedfromtheothersmouths.imadetheconclusioninthepasttime.manyapersonwasfondofdiscussingtheothers.theygothappinessesfromthedepartmentofotherfamilies.ithinktheyareallthemut,foolmonkeys!nothingcanbemorestupid!!!iunderstoodhimwiththeincreasingofmyage.

ichangedmyopiniontohimduringthatveryhotsummer.hewasworkinginaeletricallinefactory.duringthoseunusualhotdays,heworked10-15hoursadayforanextraincome.buthefellillseriouslyafterthat,despiteoftheillheinsistedonworkingyet.atlastheilledtobed,takingamedicinecare.icouldthinkabouttheheavyburdenonhisshoulders,andicertainlygotshockedbyhiscompletechangefromeadeviltoadearhardworkingfather!