心痛的花费(At the Cost of Pain)

心痛的花费(atthecostofpain)

ileanedagainstapoplartreeandgazedtowardsthedescendingsun.itwasnolongeroverbearingwithitsblindingglarebutlookedaslovelyasabigorange.ithadcastagoldenglowovereverythingandgavetheworldatransientgildeddignityandapoetrythatalmostmovedmetotears."hello,beautifulworld!"avoicerosefromthedepthofmyheart.iwassogratefultobeabletoseeallthesebrilliantthingswhichihadneglectedforsolong.

really,iwasnotsocontentedwithlifebeforeihadthateyesurgery.ithurtterribly.butbodilypainisnothingcomparedwiththepainofasinkinganddepressedheartasihadtoliveincompletedarknessfortwoweeks.fromthefirstminuteiwasshutupinthatintangible,vastandsomewhatsinisterdarkness,ibecameawareofthepricelessgiftihadbeenbestowed-myeyesight.howiwouldlongtosee!isatonthelawn,myfingerslingeredonthesuppleleaves,myheartfeltthesubtleelasticityoftheearth.green,green...thecoloroflifeiswonderful!

cheerfullittlebirdsjumpedaboutme,chirping.theyirritatedmebytheirteasingchattering.ifeltashelplessasatrappedbeast.thedarknesswasimmense,thick,suffocating.iturnedtomymemoryforhelpandtriedtorecollectsomeoldfragmentsofpicturesstoredinmymind.butmymindwasablur.iunderstoodforthefirsttimethatactuallyihadbeenblindsincelongago.dayafterdayibustledonproudlywearingapairofornamentsandsawnothing.thebeauty,thelovelinesshadescapedmelongago.itwasindarknessthatifirstsawmyself.howpitiablyblindihadalwaysbeen!theawarenesswrenchedmyheartwithasharptwinge.

thedayigotridofthebandagesonmyeyeswasunforgettablysplendid.iopenedmyeyestimidly,amazedbythegloriousworldbathedinthesun.atthattimeisaw,isawripplinggrasswithdrippinggreenness,isawlittlesparrowshoppinghereandthere,bobbingtheirheadsupanddown,isawthevastskypeacefullylookingdownatmewiththatpurityanddignitywhichrefinedmysoul.iwassogratefulthatmyeyeswereblurredwithtears.beingblindoncehadforcedmetodiscovertheblindnessinmysoul;atthecostofpainitastedagainthesweetnessoflife.whatablessing!